Please, call me crazy...
November 01, 2003 [9:43 p.m.]
Well I know I haven't updated in forever it seems, but it's all good. Me and Brian are still together and everything was and I guess still is going perfect, but gosh I just wish Sam was out of the picture entirely. Not that she is exactly In the picture. But let me explain: Brian and his brother Brett have to ride to school with her like every morning because they live like 10 minutes away from each other and it's on the way. But obviously I'm going to be jealous, just thinking of them in the car together, but I know Brett's in there and so is Jen because she rides with them too. But Friday Brian had to ride by himself with her after school. And I haven't exactly gotten to talk much with him since then, and call me crazy, but he seems kinda different acting. I can't stand it.
See he invited me to this rodeo with him next Sunday and I told him that I couldn't because I was going to this meeting Chickfila was having and it was mandatory, but I found out last night that night shift people didn't have to go (that's me) so I was so happy to tell him I could probably go with him to the rodeo. Well I talked to him earlier and told him and he didn't seem all excited and I was like thinking, "OMG, he probably invited Sam!" I'm just going crazy! I mean, he did sound semi-excited, but not as excited as he sounded when he first invited me, or, I don't know how to explain it. :\ Am I weird?
But I told myself I wasn't going to fall for him as hard as I fell last time, but i'm catching myself falling for him harder and harder every day. I don't know how to stop myself..
Maybe i'm hillucinating! I so hope I am, because I don't think I can take much more of this...