I'm so... excited!!
November 06, 2003 [9:08 p.m.]
Well nothing's new really, just the same stuff. Oh gosh, I'm so attracted to Brian, and I think it's all lust. I mean, I just want him, and when I say him, I mean HIM. Yes, I do like him and I do have feelings for him. And I really do think I could love him, if not truly now, definetly in the future, because he's so great.
Sex is often on our minds when we're together, and it's freaky. I could so go farther than usual with him. Like for instance- this weekend. He's having a rodeo and me and Jen were going to go ride up there Sunday and just spend the day up there, tons of fun! But there will be times when we could so get away with stuff, like I know we can.
I'm scared, excited, weirded out, freaked out, happy, nervous, all kinds of feelings...
I think i'm going to put a lock on this diary considering that someone from my family can easily scroll down and find this- figure out what it is, and read it.. So if you wanna read it- give me a hollar! I'll lock it soon!